a pattern perhaps
senseless though and slowing
to write through the dawning understanding of delusion – the understanding, dawning, unwanted, of the extent of your delusion – to write through the self – the idiot self – the hatred that it brings – the understanding – the thought a tiny formless life
life has no form – it matters little if at all – the no-form is all that life has
life is its own function – desire is its medium – I have lost my medium and drift in void to the sound of fading static and electric crackle
lost density – lost gravity
close darkness – restart to complete the process
to touch – to touch requires an object – a touching sense – a will – an animating principle
tens of thousands dead – crushed – burned – starved – obliterated – bodies coated with the dust of their homes
a child surrounded by the torn corpses of her family waits for her own death – knowing
abstract sleepwalk 